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a place to start
Friday, December 31, 2010
on the eve of a new year, my thoughts filter down to change. 2010 was, ostensibly, a year of stabilization. it was about putting my ducks in a row, cleaning up the detritus of the past and moving forward in a meaningful way. i'm not really prepared to say it was successful or unsuccessful but it was revealing.as 2011 approaches, i have to say that i am a bit scared. or perhaps scared is not the right word, nervous? anxious?. taking the lessons from 2010, i've slowly come to the realization that the chapter of my life in Minnesota is coming to a close. gradually the connections i have here, to this place of my birth, have withered away. so, now what? i have felt the winds of change urging me elsewhere for a while but i have been kind of terrified with the possibility of 'elsewhere'. Minnesota is all i have ever known. but my spirit hungers for a fresh start and it seems fate has been leaving subtle clues for me this whole time, now too numerous to ignore. i don't know how it will work out, how i will fare untethered and without a safety net, but i know that to move forward it actually requires a physical move from this place. so as 2011 approaches, i greet it with a bit of trepidation, a bit forlorn, but also with open arms to the possibilities, to the change, to a new beginning and adventure. deep breath. i am ready, 2011. |
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Keeper of Bees
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